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TheIndianGuy Advanced Cheater Reputation: 101
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Posted: Sun Nov 17, 2013 3:46 pm Post subject: waht the fuck is wrong with me |
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went on another couple day adventure.
day 1:
spent the money i made buying heroin.
got benzd the fuck out on my etizolam.
while high out of my mind robbed some guy at knife point for $50
day 2:
girl gets released after 5 long months
spend all day with her so i don't touch my heroin
get home around 8 and then go out looking for rigs
walked around for hours going to different walmarts and CVS stores looking to buy rigs but all pharmacys were closed.
on way home some guy buys me mcdonalds
on way home find a pack of my FAVORITE cigarettes with two left in them
get home to smoke heroin
am balling like a baby because idon't want to be doing heroin yet i'm smoking it right then and there
get high as fuck and everything is ok again
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br0l0ck Cheater Reputation: 63
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Posted: Sun Nov 17, 2013 3:52 pm Post subject: |
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the thing is you keep trying to do good but end up failing, what you should do is say fuck it, and do whatever you want, without setting yourself up for failure. you know you're going to use again, so why be negative about it? why bother trying to go on the good track if you know you're just going to fuck up again. aim for failure, and then you can easily achieve your goals.
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Nirojan How do I cheat? Reputation: 108
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Posted: Sun Nov 17, 2013 3:57 pm Post subject: |
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what rehab center did you go to again
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TheIndianGuy Advanced Cheater Reputation: 101
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Posted: Sun Nov 17, 2013 3:57 pm Post subject: |
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part of me feels like this is the onyl thing i haven't tried. but once i get back into using daily again i get into that i dno't give a fuck mode like you described which is setting myself up for failure. i don't know, i'll give it a try. i got high a few days ago on h. and before that it was like 2 weeks ago. i don't know, way too benzd right now and my girls about to pick me up.
!n wrote: | what rehab center did you go to again |
many
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Nirojan How do I cheat? Reputation: 108
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Posted: Sun Nov 17, 2013 4:02 pm Post subject: |
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damn
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Quote: | yo i b 22 tryna make it in dis rap game but da steetz dont got luv for no wun na mean so im out hea tryna holla at da fams on dis innernet shit u no way i sayin |
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TheIndianGuy Advanced Cheater Reputation: 101
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Posted: Sun Nov 17, 2013 4:08 pm Post subject: |
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yup, addiction is a BITCH
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PUSHEAX_PUSHEAX Grandmaster Cheater Reputation: 72
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Posted: Sun Nov 17, 2013 4:10 pm Post subject: |
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>robs guy at knife point
Just a normal day.
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teeigeryuh Master Cheater Reputation: 23
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Posted: Sun Nov 17, 2013 4:25 pm Post subject: |
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TheIndianGuy wrote: | part of me feels like this is the onyl thing i haven't tried. but once i get back into using daily again i get into that i dno't give a fuck mode like you described which is setting myself up for failure. i don't know, i'll give it a try. i got high a few days ago on h. and before that it was like 2 weeks ago. i don't know, way too benzd right now and my girls about to pick me up.
!n wrote: | what rehab center did you go to again |
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i really admire the fact that you really want to do something else and move forward
i never been in your position, but hey, got skype/steam/etc? i'd love to talk about this if thats okay with you
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TheIndianGuy Advanced Cheater Reputation: 101
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Posted: Sun Nov 17, 2013 11:04 pm Post subject: |
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teeigeryuh wrote: | TheIndianGuy wrote: | part of me feels like this is the onyl thing i haven't tried. but once i get back into using daily again i get into that i dno't give a fuck mode like you described which is setting myself up for failure. i don't know, i'll give it a try. i got high a few days ago on h. and before that it was like 2 weeks ago. i don't know, way too benzd right now and my girls about to pick me up.
!n wrote: | what rehab center did you go to again |
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i really admire the fact that you really want to do something else and move forward
i never been in your position, but hey, got skype/steam/etc? i'd love to talk about this if thats okay with you |
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oh yeah, and also got to spend theday with my girl after nto seeing her for 5 months deprived of sex. and i finally go to fuck her and i'm too benzd out to bust a nut. was still nice though. and got to fuck her today and came BUCKETS
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clash of clans hacks Master Cheater Reputation: 63
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Posted: Sun Nov 17, 2013 11:26 pm Post subject: |
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You know what you should do?
You should go live in Hawaii. Just, fuck everything, buy an airplane ticket and go live in Hawaii. Just build a hut on the beach or something, do old people's chores for food, have the locals teach you how to surf in exchange for your stories by a bonfire.
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TheIndianGuy Advanced Cheater Reputation: 101
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Posted: Sun Nov 17, 2013 11:52 pm Post subject: |
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Jesterisk wrote: | You know what you should do?
You should go live in Hawaii. Just, fuck everything, buy an airplane ticket and go live in Hawaii. Just build a hut on the beach or something, do old people's chores for food, have the locals teach you how to surf in exchange for your stories by a bonfire. |
do youknow how much work that sounds like. while this is similar to a dream of mine. to live in a place like jamica where you work just enough to have money for food and living expensives then keat workign mroe waehn otu ao f money and resat all over agin.
but i an't even akigme that irhgt now . diotn' want have the energy to asmoke a icg outisd rleight nwo
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Posted: Mon Nov 18, 2013 1:53 am Post subject: |
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Brolock wrote: | the thing is you keep trying to do good but end up failing, what you should do is say fuck it, and do whatever you want, without setting yourself up for failure. you know you're going to use again, so why be negative about it? why bother trying to go on the good track if you know you're just going to fuck up again. aim for failure, and then you can easily achieve your goals. | Yeah, real intelligent. Make him justify his childish actions and suddenly everything'll be alright and he'll be happy and all.
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br0l0ck Cheater Reputation: 63
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Posted: Mon Nov 18, 2013 2:13 am Post subject: |
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Safko wrote: | Brolock wrote: | the thing is you keep trying to do good but end up failing, what you should do is say fuck it, and do whatever you want, without setting yourself up for failure. you know you're going to use again, so why be negative about it? why bother trying to go on the good track if you know you're just going to fuck up again. aim for failure, and then you can easily achieve your goals. | Yeah, real intelligent. Make him justify his childish actions and suddenly everything'll be alright and he'll be happy and all. | yea sounds good
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TheIndianGuy Advanced Cheater Reputation: 101
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Posted: Mon Nov 18, 2013 2:50 am Post subject: |
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Safko wrote: | Brolock wrote: | the thing is you keep trying to do good but end up failing, what you should do is say fuck it, and do whatever you want, without setting yourself up for failure. you know you're going to use again, so why be negative about it? why bother trying to go on the good track if you know you're just going to fuck up again. aim for failure, and then you can easily achieve your goals. | Yeah, real intelligent. Make him justify his childish actions and suddenly everything'll be alright and he'll be happy and all. |
i oviously would never go through with this. my family lives here, i don't havave the oounty let alone the state on probtaione nay cash. i love it in southern california. my girlfriened lives here. everythign is great. plus i can't lie
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Black Magic I post too much Reputation: 5
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Posted: Mon Nov 18, 2013 4:38 am Post subject: |
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TheIndianGuy wrote: |
yup, addiction is a BITCH |
I really dont see whats so bad about it, sure it sucks when you dont have any but it doesnt stop me from going about my day. im addicted to nicotine, alcohol, klonopin, and adderall for christ sakes yet you let one drug ruin your entire life
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